HOSPITAL AND HOME LIFE
Monday, 2nd July. I didn't mean to post again so early, but having got back home from the hospital last night, about 9.30pm, I felt incredibly sad. Seeing Janet lying on the hospital bed (although she had actually been sitting up in a chair when I first arrived) and us talking and crying just broke my heart.
This whole change in our life seems so unfair after all we've been through together. The life we had, which despite our arguments and my sometimes melancholic mood, was pretty good but that has gone and we shall need to get another good life back in a different fashion.
Janet has said a couple of times that she is scared I will walk away, with her now being disabled but that she would understand if I wanted to leave and wouldn't want me to stay against my will. I have quite firmly told her that's not going to happen Curiously enough, I am feeling as close to Janet now as I ever have.
We are both feeling very lonely at the moment, in different environments but for the same reason.
The formal assessment of her condition takes place this morning and this will hopefully be a positive for us all to take on board. I know Janet will do her utmost to do whatever she can to make the best of this terrible situation although it is sometimes very difficult for her, and me, to remain in a positive frame of mind.
This whole change in our life seems so unfair after all we've been through together. The life we had, which despite our arguments and my sometimes melancholic mood, was pretty good but that has gone and we shall need to get another good life back in a different fashion.
Janet has said a couple of times that she is scared I will walk away, with her now being disabled but that she would understand if I wanted to leave and wouldn't want me to stay against my will. I have quite firmly told her that's not going to happen Curiously enough, I am feeling as close to Janet now as I ever have.
We are both feeling very lonely at the moment, in different environments but for the same reason.
The formal assessment of her condition takes place this morning and this will hopefully be a positive for us all to take on board. I know Janet will do her utmost to do whatever she can to make the best of this terrible situation although it is sometimes very difficult for her, and me, to remain in a positive frame of mind.
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